Thursday, March 26, 2020

Social Isolation Day One.

Easter crafts with the new textas and pencils I brought.
I'm going to be completely honest with you, I haven't felt this sad in a very very long time, 
I've had my moments over the years since my uncle passed,
him passing really broke me and I felt so lost for a very long time.
and now that same feeling of grief sadness has rushed back in, It's been a rather crazy few weeks here actually the last few days in Australia, the coronavirus has now taken over majority of the countries around the world and is raising here in Sydney. 
We are currently on partial lockdowns, we can go to work if our jobs are open and get essential like food or medicine.
and I am pretty sure at any moment it can change to a full lockdown.

I am so scared and I feel so guilty that my daughters have to go through this and every other child on this earth.

My girls stopped going to school on Tuesday, on the advice of the premier and our doctor
and I am grateful my parents have been able help us out as we both have our jobs running, even though we shouldn't as they are at the risk age so more guilt.

I feel so mean keeping them home from school as Dani just wants to go back and borrow books from her library.

We haven't even seen Chris' grandparents because we don't want to accidentally infect them.

I really don't know what else to do.
Today was my day off and we briefly left the house to attend a hospital appointment for Bella 
and her previously broken arm, which is all good thankfully.

Now the next time I leave will be Sunday morning unless things change.

Are we stocked up with enough food I think we are but I don't really know.

Gabi's birthday is around the corner and I brought things for it before everything got out of hand just incase, I am even saving 2 eggs to make her a cake.
and this makes me cry.

You want to give your children the world plus more but look at it now.

Saturday, October 12, 2019


There are many forms of self-care and each are equally important.
image from pinterest

Finding balance is hard.

Having three children, a job and trying to keep our home maintained + trying to go to the gym constantly is fucken hard and self care.
Let's not forget trying hard to keep myself from not losing my shit.

I've lost the balance recently actually well before the wedding because I just was so overwhelmed with everything that I had to do in such little time (my fault). 

My mental state took a massive beating, mostly my body issues started acting up again and I have no idea how to control that.

But I've been thinking lately and I realised something but, that I should be grateful with what my body has done and what it keeps doing everyday it's going to take time.

So I'm slowly going to ease my way to find the balance in my life to see what works for me because I need to love me. 🏋🏻‍♀️🧘‍♀️🏄🏻‍♂️

Thursday, August 30, 2018

and just like that its been 7 months since my last post, its crazy how time goes past when life is busy.